Dating and other fun things

Apparently if you are single mother you are seen as a whore or a loser by many people. The funny thing is as far as anyone is concerned I've only had sex 3 times. Or there is the idea that maybe I'm single out of choice. For the most part I am single because I want to be. I've dated a few people in the past. I do want to find someone to share my life with. At the end of the day when my kids are asleep and the house is quiet I do want someone there to spend time with. To discuss things and bounce ideas off. Most of my friends are married or are in long term relationships. The feelings of 'loserdom' comes into play when I feel like I'm the only one that doesn't have a partner or a spouse. I'm always the odd one out. Is there something wrong with me? I know that I'm odd and quirky but really?

I try not to let these feelings of inadequacy bother me or bring me down. I know that I'm pretty flipping awesome and have a lot to give. One day there will be a guy that completes our family. That not only loves me but loves my kids as well. I know it may be a huge thing to overcome or want to deal with but I won't become overly cynical or a social recluse because some guys aren't able to handle the fact that I have 3 kids. They are the ones missing out not me.

I like being single in many ways. Not having to worry about cooking meat (where are all the men who eat less meat or are vegetarian) or cooking what they like. If I don't feel like doing something I don't. But at the same time I miss talking to someone other than the dogs or Sawyer while cooking.

to be continued.